"Everybody had a hard year." -- John Lennon

For myself, it now seems like a scab that gets picked at. A wound slow to heal. I remind myself that as messed up as it seems on paper, I have to remain thankful for that which has now been lost. We can only feel this bad now because of how good it felt there for awhile.

I remember very purposefully, in the fall of 1988, in an anonymous little cineplex in Champaign, Ill., enduring "Tequila Sunrise" just so I could hear a new Crowded House song. It's the hundreds of thousands of little acts like that over the years, over the globe, that tell you how good it was. We made an effort to listen because we appreciated the effort Paul, Neil, Nick (and later Mark) were making.

But at that, I find myself still this fall wondering what brought us to this place. There's Neil, on stage at the ARIAS, singing for Paul. If you close your eyes, open your ears and think for a moment, you realize that in a parallel universe it should have been the four of them up there, in some hopefully none too distant year, singing that song as they were being inducted into the Hall of Fame.

And for those who were close to Paul there are the holidays to be confronted. Those signposts in the calendar that make it all to easy to cast back to what everyone was doing last Christmas.

Enough. Continued best wishes to those that Paul left behind. And tonight, by way of consolation and comfort, I'll once again sing our newborn to sleep with "Four Seasons In One Day".
Such eloquence, together_alone. Just beautiful.

What an emotional month or so it's been.

This wound really is taking a long time to heal.

Bless your heart, Hessie, not a day goes by I don't think about you.
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And tonight, by way of consolation and comfort, I'll once again sing our newborn to sleep with "Four Seasons In One Day".


And your little one will sleep well, with the strength of your love and the voices of those beautiful boys in your heart.
Thank you for sharing together_alone. A very moving post. *hugs*

*tears*
I wish that Paul could have seen the beautiful tributes sung at Homebake last weekend...... there's nothing like 20,000 people singing their hearts out to each and every word for HIM. It was spine tingling to be there....pure magic. And yes, it still brought a tear or two to the eyes....

Paul Hester - Always Remembered, Forever Loved.
From my personal viewpoint on how this world and the next works, he knows and saw and felt and feels the love - pure magic indeed, such an overwhelming collective of love is powerful beyond our comprehension. How blessed you all were to have been there and been part of it, and what a joy it must have been to see Nick back up on stage with Neil and obviously loving the experience.

Paul Hester - indeed always remembered and forever loved.
L
xxx
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Originally posted by Love&Peace:
From my personal viewpoint on how this world and the next works, he knows and saw and felt and feels the love - pure magic indeed, such an overwhelming collective of love is powerful beyond our comprehension. How blessed you all were to have been there and been part of it, and what a joy it must have been to see Nick back up on stage with Neil and obviously loving the experience.

Paul Hester - indeed always remembered and forever loved.
L
xxx

Beautiful Smiler I love Paul forever
Remembering you this Hogmany (end of year) Paul.
You don't know how much I miss you even though we never met mate! Frowner
Well, the year is nearly over.....what a bittersweet 2005 we have had. Perhaps one of the most difficult years ever.

Through it all I have been lucky enough to meet some beautiful people and tonight we will be celebrating together and remembering the many, many happy memories that Paul brought us. How lucky are we to be able to re-live such beautiful memories?

Thank you Paul....thank you, for just being you and for bringing like minded people together.

You meant so much to each and every one of us and we look forward to celebrating tonight in your honour.

Farewell forever 2005........here comes 2006!
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Thank you Paul....thank you, for just being you and for bringing like minded people together.


I'll second that.

Bless you, Hessie, for everything you've done for us.

We miss you, we love you, and we'll never forget you.
I'm sure Paul's loved ones really felt the ache of his absence over the holiday season in particular. My heart goes out to all those he left behind, as they begin a new year.
My thoughts drifted to Paul now and again as Christmas approached. The quiet moments were few and far between, as I work in retail (UGH!).
Trust me, when you work in a mall, the magic of Christmas wears very thin and you pray for January ( and not to throttle the next idiot you have to deal with ). Sorry to digress, I am still a little shell shocked...
At 10am on Dec.31st, I realized that the clock had struck midnight in Australia, and thought 'Now Paul will be forever stuck in 2005'. Bizarre thought, but as I said - shell shocked.... Roll Eyes
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At 10am on Dec.31st, I realized that the clock had struck midnight in Australia, and thought 'Now Paul will be forever stuck in 2005'. Bizarre thought, but as I said - shell shocked.... Roll Eyes


That thought has just floored me, kinda like a slap in the face.

But we'll never leave him behind, he's with us always.
His body may have been laid to rest in 2005, but the memories, and his spirit are eternal! Reminds me of him singing "people don't die just coz their dead, listen close, turn up your headset, memories stay just a little longer, we're glad to say we're still, we're glad to say we're still' we're glad to say..... we're.... still ....here...!"
He'll always be here! Having said that,I thought a lot about all Paul's loved ones over Christmas, especially the girls, his absence must have left such an enormous hole in their hearts and lives, they would have missed him so much over Christmas, I hope they are all managing ok and finding love and comfort with each other, their friends and families, particularly also on Sunday, Paul's birthday - I know I'll be raising a glass with great thanks for his birth and presence, although far too short, in this world, and for all he gave to us! Thanks Paulo for the joy and happiness, the laughter and the music - you are sorely missed.
Be at peace,
Lxxx
we will all be thinking about Paul on Sunday, it will be his birthday, many of us still think of him everyday, I hope we will play a few songs and send him a cheer across the divide and that his family and friends will find some comfort with eachother to celebrate his memory. We miss you Hessie Frowner
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Ah, Love & Peace - such eloquence. It's so hard to find the right words but you echo my sentiments exactly.

Tears.......yes, even now...start to well again.

We will be thinking of you on Sunday Paul - I just hope that wherever you are, you know how MUCH that really is.
I was always pleased to say I shared my birthday with Elvis Presley and David Bowie.

I didn't know until I joined the frenz this year, under such sad circumstances, that I also shared it with Paul, now he's the one I'm most proud of having that connection with.

I've been thinking about Paul a lot over Christmas and with Sunday coming up. My best wishes go out to his family and friends.

I'll be raising a glass for him on Sunday.
Ah bugger it. I was hoping 2005 had been a really bad dream.

*sigh*

I know you're out there watching over us Hessie. We miss you.

(But please, no more really close bird encounters to freak us out when we're talking about you OK? Joke's over buddy!!)

Hold on tight guys...we're all feeling it.
Frowner Smiler ConfusedIn 28 days (Canadian time), It'll be one year since Hessie stepped off... anyone thinking or hearing about any plans to mark that day?

It would be lovely to have something on Frenz.com to look at (pics, sound bites, posts ).
I've been thinking about Paul all day. I had a dream about him last night, one of those incredibly vivid dreams that just feels so real.

How far I feel I've travelled in the past 11 months. Yet I sit here, listening to LLT II (told you I would tonight didn't I Ash?), tears falling, and I feel the same as I did last year.

Gutted. Bewildered. And so, so sad.
I'm sitting here working away on the computer listening to my Enz play list and I'm singing along to a song then I realized it was This Is Massive. All of a sudden I had tears in my eyes and started thinking about the times when I saw Paul playing the song live and how fantastic and fun it was.
Then I thought about where he is now and how it's nearly 1 year since he departed us.
It hit me of how joy much his music has brought me.

Now I've got Noel doing Ninnie Knees Up.
It's making me laugh. Hope he plays it when the Enz tour.
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I can't believe that in two weeks, it will be one year since Paul said 'Good-bye'. I've been fighting back tears today and the last couple of days before. For some reason, very early in the morning is the time I think about Hessie the most. Perhaps the long trip to work allows for that...

The only consolation is I know there are so many others who feel similar things, and are looking at that day that is approaching on the calendar with wariness and resignation. Miss You Man!!!
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Frowner Smiler ConfusedIn 28 days (Canadian time), It'll be one year since Hessie stepped off... anyone thinking or hearing about any plans to mark that day?

It would be lovely to have something on Frenz.com to look at (pics, sound bites, posts ).


I think i'm just going to watch crowded house DVDs/live concerts/video clips all day and sleep. i'm bawling just thinking about him. Can't believe it's almost been a year. Rest in peace, Paulo.
I'll have to do something, but not sure what. Perhaps I'll go to church ( which is saying a lot, as I haven't been for 13 years ). Talk about a lapsed Catholic. By the way...Happy St. Patricks Day to all my fellow Irish folk!! Big Grin Roll Eyes Wink
Day 365....
Has anyone else really listened to the lyrics of LLT II 'Already been done"
It reiterates that our lives are 'Already been done' - things happen when they are destined to and for whatever reason...painful as it may be - we cannot stop fate - but we can attempt to accept it - Paulo could see that -
and this song has helped me to do the same.
Everyone who can, listen to this song it's a real gem...
Paulo's not really left us - I can feel him everywhere..

Sunday
My thoughts and wishes are with those who Paulo left behind today. Hope you are all able to get through it, and remember Paul for his life, not his death.
Well, I made it through the day alright. Actually I was a little non-plussed by my lack of emotion. Yes, it was still only March 25 here, but down under....

That is not to say that i didn't think about Paul, I must have at least several times. I felt rather emotionless about the whole deal. I just hope that it doesn't hit me like a ton of bricks, like it did last year (about 10 days after the fact).

My thoughts, the ones Paul related, were mostly of his friends & family, and of course all of you posties here.

Makes you think, one whole year! And if we're lucky, we only have perhaps 70 or 80 of those altogether. Wow.

Love, Peace, Happiness.... Wink Razzer
Hi everyone,
I've been down and out for a few months and have just been catching up on all the news.....

There is still not a day that goes by when I don't think about our Paulo..sometimes only fleetingly...other days, he seems to be everywhere in my mind.....
I still miss him and always will....
but we have his music and our memories.

RIP - we will always love you

Sunday
Yes Sunday, I still do think about Paul daily (or more), but like you, it's fleeting. I just had a Paul dream a few nights ago. Haven't a clue now what it was like, other than the fact that I awoke with a grin.



Not THAT kind of grin Wink Wink Wink

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