I put on the Sydney Farewell to the World concert tonight, completely out of the blue, just wanted to hear the music, and immediately realised the month....the date...etc.
Have just had some tears watching/listening to Italian Plastic, how much fun was that, god he was brilliant!
At the same time began thinking, 3 years, far out, I am still crying, wondering about Sunday and Olive and hoping they are thriving and living life to the full, as only girls their age can!
Can't help but want to somehow wallow in the feelings I have right at this moment, but know I should pull my head in and stop it!!! Its been 3 years right???
I really do find it strange that I haven't thought specifically about Paul for ages, and it happened tonight, and then realised we are in this week......must be some kind of inbuilt grief system!
Anyway, the DVD is now playing in the background...Fingers of Love, and I love you Paul forever, your memory and the joy that brings, and most of all I hope those closest are OK, the girls, Mardi, the rest of the family, the friends, and all the people who are now feeling your loss 3 years on. Could be 3 days for the emotions still felt. xxxxx