Thank you hyacinth and ash for your kind comments.
Yesterday was difficult and heartbreaking as expected but I visited the cemetery with Phil's mum for the first time (she doesn't live locally) and I think it helped both of us. It was good spending time with her.
Peter, how lovely for you to hear from Paul's sister. I know how important friends and family are at these times. I've been so touched by the support I've received over the last 6 months including from Frenz Forum members such as Ellefinn. I'm so appreciative of being part of this community.
It has been mentioned on other threads about how music has helped and comforted others. It has also been such a major part of my life but I've realised recently just how important it is to me. I couldn't live without it. Time on Earth especially has such huge importance to me now and it brings me comfort and I have a deep connection with it.